I'm totally out of money, and I dont have anything to fall back on. I'll still be doing some events, but I'm really over the whole try to do a whole series with no budget, no dedicated mechanic, etc.
Plus if you drive at these FD events nowadays, your required to be at autograph sessions, drivers meetings while tech is going on etc, you gotta be in two places at once a lot and drive. right now i just dont have the financial resources to do it anymore all the time.
Im not quitting altogether, but unless some big money deal comes around so i can hire somene as a dedicated mechanic for my car so it doesnt blow up all the time, and so i can actually just drive at the events instead of drive there, unload everything, setup, tech, drive, fix, change tires etc I just dont wanna do it anymore. Its frustrating driving to events knowing you've got a shot to win and stupid shit breaking because you are on such a shoestring that you cant even change the oil in your truck or carry a spare tire in your trailer because your so tapped out.
I'm not trying to be a whiner, I'm just stating where I'm at and whats important to me right now. Drifting is about having fun, and to me honestly until I have enough money saved up to do it right, its not fun. Its also November, by February who knows, but right now I'll fix my car when I get a chance, and just take it out for fun and do what I can, thats just what I'm comfortable and financially able to do right now.
Its just not worth dollar menu, not taking care of my girlfreind, bouncing off couches and not having enough to change the oil in my truck anymore. I'm at the point where I wanna have a roof over my head, and when I load up the rig I wanna go have fun and not worry about how I'm gonna eat when I get home and where I'm gonna sleep for that week. I'm over that.
Driftings about fun, thats all I want it to be again.
With love,
Redundant Thoughtpatternspeed95.
I really appreciate all the kind comments btw, I just want to get my life together and put myself in front of drifting for once in the last two years.